it’s hard to locate
but even more difficult to find
i gotta get a peace of mind
until then
i’ll play like i’m fine
wear bright colors
as though the sadness
doesn’t sit like a bench
on my mind
pose for the camera
smile for the gram
paint in societal lines
a life defined by crying emojis
and peace signs
got on a ladder
trying to make it
to the upper room
God sent me back
said I was trying to leave
to soon
negativity took all
the air out the room
leaving nothing
but numb feelings
and mortal doom
applied torches
to my hopes and dreams
tears burned away
at my hope
like moths eating through
dress seams
wanted change
reached for better
till i hit a vein
the type of buildup
that would drive
a blessed person insane
but i kept going
all the same
posting laughter emoji’s
in the rain
-Eshadapoet
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